My name is Sabrina my pen name has been Brinaspeaks® for some time now. I’m a poet, mother, wife, aspiring author and child of God. The story that I have to tell, carries time lost, grief, self-destruction, grace, forgiveness and love. It’s been almost two decades since I decided to tell this story, unfortunately God had other plans. But with a humble heart, and obedience I am ready to share it with the world.
Allow me to re-introduce myself
God was keeping my projects in the vault through the years for a reason…
It just wasn’t my season…
I needed to be made over to understand what was about to take place.
And to be able to handle it with Grace…
I needed to come back to the table with my eyes open…
Cause I was carrying too much, and I was broken…
He was preparing a table for me… (Psalms 24:5)
And I was too full of the world to even feast…
On the delights that he had set aside for me…
He said he had plans, plans to prosper and give me hope (Jeremiah 29:11)
But instead of holding on to the rope…
I took it and put it around my throat.
I sabotaged his many plans for my life.
Living reckless and full of strife…
Thank God he saved my life!!!
So, when I went back into that vault recently to write…
And I heard him saying “not quite.”
So, I found myself back at blank pages…
And all the work I had been writing for ages…
To no use for him…
Those pages glorified the life of sin…
After I had enough material for several releases…
He said “Because you found out what real peace is…
This one is going to be a little different…
No more Generational curses…
You will show what your true worth is…
No more speaking about the past like it defies you…
No more speaking about what the devil denied you…
How prayer was instilled in you, how the Word presided you…
How that anointing never left you!”
I sat there dumbfounded because starting over after all these years was just a lot…
To question his plan, I dare not…
And as there in silence.
I found all of this kind of odd,
And then he gave me a new title….
DEAR GOD...(because I cried out to him all the time)
And that blew my mind….
Secretly and previously, I had a deadline…
And maybe that’s why I had fallen behind…
Cause everything happens by his design…
So, I sat there and said, "back to the drawing board".
“Your will not mine oh Lord…”
Brinaspeaks®
